WHAT IS STILL THE LOVE FOR ME TODAY When I'm with you, I feel happy and needed, and want to stay in this world longer than before. You, my love, never expected me to be a sinless woman. That's why I want you to know that the sweet pain we experienced long ago together, actually, never left me. If you asked me now, how I live all this time without you I will be truthful and confess to you that even in your absence and silence, I still feel that magnetic attraction force between me and you. It is the same power that moves, builds, and destroys. Does it live in us, or does it seek some justice or aspire to its strange laws, no matter who will hurt! To stop this immeasurable confusion, I need to ask you many questions for which you only have the correct answers. I told you, I was all alone but never felt lonely all this time! I was still heartbroken, and you came and, in a blink, with a single hug, restored my desire for self-love, freedom, and unexpected new adventure with you. I am aware of sacrifices you have overcome to be with me. But you knew that it was never easy to love me the way I am with you. "I appreciate your life", you said when you left me last. Yes, now you are in my soul, like long-awaited anxiety And you would be the not-taken arrow from my heart forever, but if I could be even for a moment in your embrace, I would be fine for some time all alone again. In wealth, in poverty, in height, and in lows, I take it without a doubt, whatever God has for you and me, I will be next to you when you need me for good time, or to take you out of a bottomless abyss or deep sleep.