AM I FORBIDDEN TO LOVE YOU I could see now that back then, you were blessed in a way to be in love, or, more likely, somehow your curiosity was provoked by my directness. With all those thoughts, with trust, I let you into my heart, where our Long-suppressed wishes came out without shame. "Take me to eternity with you! Only there, we could prolong our upcoming irreplaceable moments." was my first strange offer, and I sensed your mistrusted thoughts. "How do you know what will follow? What would happen if I made some unthinkable promise, like we do in front of the icon or altar sometimes?" But I guess it was the same voice, who answered you instead of me:”Don’t worry! You only must remember that even the most exciting beginnings have an end.” I ignored God's warning too, and jumped fearlessly into unknown with you, my love, while jokingly confessing: "Well, I did that already three times without going to any altars!" "What would you expect from me right now? Maybe, lessons in devotion or you are curious about the unlawful life itself I passed?” You surprised me with your fast response, or I did hear what I wanted to happen: "Show me what love mean to you then!" "Let’s set aside if any worries, so I could give you chance to prove to yourself what insatiable lover you could be, but only with me!" After you won me over, we kissed goodbye, and I was overwhelmed by mixed feelings when you disappeared into the frosty morning. But I felt how painlessly you replaced my loneliness with your dedication and love.