BEYOND REALITY Green and endless was spreading out by the freeway – Enveloped in mystery, there was a place called Forest Lawn. I felt the hand of the Lord, who made me stop there. Baby, you and I’ll meet for sure in Heaven someday. It was after I realized that I actually love you, I signed a contract with myself to ask you, Did I make your days with me distinctive? Or did I bring only countless worries and pain? Please, my love, don't blame me now because I exchanged the cozy motel room for graves, Without even asked you, would you like to lie by my side there with me, or you would prefer to fly all alone between The Heaven and Earth, like a free bird, which I believed you are? The love balm, you poured into me these years, You preserve my body and my feelings forever. And at the time of our first encounter, in Heaven, You will recognize me among the crowd in a blink. It will be me, and only you will see me Paco as the ray of sunshine for you in the darkness. With no words, but only with my eyes will tell you How much all that time you Paco, meant to me. And I know that you will forgive all my sins Even that secret ceremony I created for us now. I’ll drop the marriage veil before my eyes, but my presence and hunger for love for you will remain, telling - I will love you forever!

WHAT IS STILL THE LOVE FOR ME TODAY When I'm with you, I feel happy and needed, and want to stay in this world longer than before. You, my love, never expected me to be a sinless woman. That's why I want you to know that the sweet pain we experienced long ago together, actually, never left me. If you asked me now, how I live all this time without you I will be truthful and confess to you that even in your absence and silence, I still feel that magnetic attraction force between me and you. It is the same power that moves, builds, and destroys. Does it live in us, or does it seek some justice or aspire to its strange laws, no matter who will hurt! To stop this immeasurable confusion, I need to ask you many questions for which you only have the correct answers. I told you, I was all alone but never felt lonely all this time! I was still heartbroken, and you came and, in a blink, with a single hug, restored my desire for self-love, freedom, and unexpected new adventure with you. I am aware of sacrifices you have overcome to be with me. But you knew that it was never easy to love me the way I am with you. "I appreciate your life", you said when you left me last. Yes, now you are in my soul, like long-awaited anxiety And you would be the not-taken arrow from my heart forever, but if I could be even for a moment in your embrace, I would be fine for some time all alone again. In wealth, in poverty, in height, and in lows, I take it without a doubt, whatever God has for you and me, I will be next to you when you need me for good time, or to take you out of a bottomless abyss or deep sleep.

4/22/2020 This morning, when I woke up, I remembered that last night, 3 minutes after "The Earth day" had passed, there was a reminder that there were earthquakes that were more severe than the viruses that currently concern us. I opened the computer and this time I was angry with myself, that I still hope that I have not been forgotten and even thought who was thinking at that moment about parasites like us - retirees. But at that moment, I decided to seek an explanation for the anomaly that our people were in and that not only the intelligentsia but also the journalists were subjected to the same attitude. I bet most people who earned their benefits through hard work, like me, opened their bank accounts this morning and are still wondering where the hell the promised money is. Guys, I will remind you that Trump is facing an anomalous dilemma: whether to sign or put his full name on the checks we are waiting for. And here comes the moment when the cup of patience is pouring over for normal people. Because Trump is an egomaniac who tries to rob us of our remaining dignity unpunished with his stupid actions. People know me as an honest and caring person by nature, and this morning, when I saw the news, I decided to help a sick person in need this time. But first, I want to ask my and your fellow citizens, insane with fear, insecurity, and hunger, whether anyone cares whether Kim Jung-un or Trump is alive or dead. Specifying my personal opinion on the matter, I want to share my idea that Trump will not only perpetuate himself as a one-of-a-kind president, but also that, probably, the only way to calm himself down is to have some golf time. To clarify, my idea was born of impasse and national pride as an American of choice. It is clear to everyone that to satisfy his maniacal, sick desires and gain time, Trump deliberately engages the people with simplicity and checks our patience. So I came to the conclusion that he would not surprise anyone with how much he cares about small businesses, such as those who make tattoos in America. Yes, if he announces tomorrow that all American citizens, as a symbol of loyalty, are required to tattoo his name on his left hand, it will give many people jobs. I want to know what happens to these hardworking people who will be deprived of their right to become American citizens these two months. No problem he figured out how to vote for him out of gratitude by overturning his decision. We all drink water from the same blemish before we reach the great opportunities we choose. It is created by educated, intelligent, awake people like us, and no one can manipulate us. Reminding us of the essential details about street criminals, I would say I wouldn't be surprised if he obliges the people who won't vote for him to have a tattoo on their foreheads. 11/10/2025 I think that my last advice to him will be the best outcome of the situation. If Trump and Putin have the guts and commit suicide without too much fuss, I think they will deserve the party we will throw for them as our last affection to both of them.